How has life treated you in the last couple of days?? Has the cold front that is moving across Europe affected you as much as me?? Because I basically only left the house to get groceries and went back inside as soon as possible...going out even only to the cinema is pretty annoying because you wear so many layers of clothes that taking them off takes ages and it gets on my nerve's...Another factor for why I'm staying inside these days is a pure anti-social mood. Sometimes people annoy me and I don't think many of you will disagree with this. It doesn't mean that I don't like people in general but I can't get rid of the feeling that I do not like many of them. I don't have any troubles with being nice to strangers or tell people the right way if I know it...but I don't like many people for real. Because so many of them are fake. Maybe they are not? Maybe I am the fake one?And I am making this up inside my head like so many things. But this is the feeling that I get.
So what do you do when you don't like many of the people you meet? Shut up and be nice? Or give in to your inside compulsion to be a little nasty to them? Or really try to be positive and accept people and think of them as if you can learn something from anybody?? This was an advice one wise guy has given me. And yes, it works. Sometimes at least. If the mood is right. Which is rather difficult in these gray and cold times...there are also no good concerts to cheer me up...pff, it really sucks...
The other day I had this crazy thought under the shower ..that you sometimes meet people and you do not spend a huge amount of time with them, but they affect your whole life or world-view in a way...meeting someone can sometimes be a revelation, it opens your eyes for a new perspective and makes you see things from a different side...which can be incredibily helpful. Nevertheless, most of these few wise people that you meet during your short and pitiful life just stay for a very short time. But I guess it is not about the time that you spend with these people, but the quality of this time...
It is kinda sad...I'd love to invite all these people I've met somewhere on the world for a nice dinner, but yes I guess that you wouldnt work properly either...
Because it was in that very time and moment that you had a connection with that person and I don't think you can repeat this very feeling in a different time and setting...this is the magic of life...*gg*
As the buddhists say, here and now are the important elements in life, not the past or the future as you can not influence them. It's only here and now that you can do things the way you want...Sounds easy, but isn't...if you are such a "brainsick" person like me...my thoughts are like an ocean and I'm sitting in this little rubber boat that tossed around in the swell...not a nice feeling...sometimes it makes you wanna throw up...
So how is one supposed to cope with this attachment to moments, memories and people...how can one let go and move on...without trying to mentally ruin the good time...and without getting this strong twinge in your chest that tells you "I want this again, now!!!"???
Pretty tough question...if anyone of you has some answers or helpful hints, let me know...
I AM IN NEED...
Have a quiet weekend...because silence can be magical too...
S
PS: The headline is taken from my current favourite band The Dodos (yes, still!! because their lyrics are amazing!!!) Here the link to one of their great songs called Fables (click me, pls!!) and another one you have to hear called Jodi...I love his mad guitar playing and the percussion...and live they are unbeatable!!!
Wow...deep. Kinda describes my moods as well during these days ;)
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